who walks this dusty road

The last time i wrote a (novel-length) freely expressed rant i got a lot of “are you ok?” replies and messages as a response…I guess I didn’t really realise how negative that could come across…but then people should just know me better maybe?

I suppose I could have been a little more tactful in conveying my unhappiness or something like that..

In the past two months a fair bit has changed, without so much really physically changing..but things are definitely better, thankfully..

I believe that having known such a strong sense of belonging and love for a place that I can’t currently even visit has made it much harder to accept a life elsewhere. Life’s pretty good in London at the moment, the weather’s even been decent lately, but it’s just not home. It’s not me. And there’s not much I can do about that.

It’s odd feeling a sense of not belonging. I should be used to it really, but having had it before it’s like you don’t know what’s missing until it’s gone right..

I suppose until I can overcome that or work on it, I just have to accept life sans belonging. Displaced and ok with it..let’s see how long it lasts.

The past five months in London have been up and down, and as a result my camera has only just left the drawer it was buried in…however instagram has become a regular outlet…so here’s the last few months..

I like the air

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After 3 weeks and 33 flat visits, I finally found myself the most perfect flat and flatmate in London…and so I’m happy to announce that I’m now an official resident of London, N7 to be specific.

With the whole flat hunting ordeal finally behind me, and a rad place to come home to, I am overjoyed to have free time to enjoy this royal city…well, when its not pissing down as it has done very much of late.

After more rain in may than the past 200 years there was a fantastic glimpse of summer to come which lasted us a glorious 10 hot, muggy, sunny days..and of course, the rain did indeed return to remind us that though it may officially be summer…we are in Britain, and that just won’t do.

The festival season kicked off in beauty over the jubilee long weekend with a partially sunny, and totally rad field day over at vic park. I was caught off guard by the crowds and queues (it wasn’t sold out…) and after taking the wrong bus (scenic route through Clapton) and running through the streets of hackney I found myself queuing for so long to enter that I missed my fav band…bummed out and on the verge of tears I hightailed it for the red bull tent to restore my faith in the world (Dutch courage and energy drinks will do that apparently)

After borrowing a stranger’s phone (I’d like to thank Vodafone…crap mobile reception) I managed to find some friends and the day turned into one of fun in the sun (sometimes) with great tunes and a massive park to dart across from one stage to another…personal highlights were Metronomy and Beirut who were both really great live acts..

We ended the night there dancing in the rain to Franz Ferdinand…how appropriately British for my very first, British festival. Photos to come.

The Hidden Orchestra

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One of the best things about this city (I know I’ve only been here a week but I have indeed always loved this about London) is the crazy amount of stuff happening…all the time!!

I have enjoyed a few gigs of some favourite bands, always awesome.

But something I truly love, is discovering new bands at gigs…via amazing friends who take me along or suggest something they think I’ll enjoy…and so on Sunday night, my friend and temporary flatmate/landlord had a spare ticket for The Hidden Orchestra.

As the tickets were a gift to her, she didn’t know them either, a quick YouTube search had us wanting more, excited to discover another cool band…I know I’m quite out of the loop (years on the other side of the world then months without a base will do that to you) and that was confirmed as the gig was completely sold out! A good sign, and to their credit they earned all their fans by being so damn awesome. Think jazzy drum n bass…oh and two drummers. Yep TWO DRUMMERS! Any band with two drummers is already rocking it. These guys were so freakin good…they were playing together, against each other…ahh it was so perfectly done too.

Now I may have mentioned this before (I seem to have posted the same video clip twice so it wouldn’t surprise me) but I have had truly shit luck with supporting acts.

I don’t quite understand it really. I mean as far as I know, supporting acts are meant to be local talent, up and coming artists, in the same vein as the main acts…a chance to discover some cool new musos, perhaps become a fan and buy an album or tshirt or something.

Somehow, and perhaps it’s a Melbourne thing…my gig experience of the past few years has been great for the main acts but abysmal in the supporting act department. Not average. Like really really really bad.

Needless to say I’m now quite apprehensive when it comes to supporting acts. I try to get there as late as possible so I’m just in time for the real thing!

Well we miscalculated and managed to make it while the first supporters were playing…damn.
But actually, they weren’t too bad. And they probably were in the vein of the main act. Only whinier. But enjoyable nonetheless.

But The Hidden Orchestra, man those guys were unreal! Look them up, or go see them. They’re rad.

Go your own way

Today I realised its been almost three months since I last wrote here…pretty bad in my opinion.

That said my writing has been all over the place for almost a year, reflecting my lack of being settled and my more personal journey of recent times.

Since last August I have spent almost six weeks in London at various times. Each time hoping that I’d see another side, be drawn to live in this city and find interesting work to make the move.

Well between here and the many cities I visited, I ended up in India for four months, guess I didn’t quite find what I was looking for…or perhaps, I wasn’t looking for the right thing…so in the end I found that and I went for it.

Months later getting a job has become imperative for a few reasons…I’m really missing coffee for one!

I decided it would be between London and Paris, and after a short stint in each city I left London with a solid offer.

So here I am, a couple weeks later, having starting my new job at one of the city’s latest cafes, renting my mates couch and flat hunting in my spare time…exhausting!!

Anyone who’s done the whole flatshare thing can appreciate how tiring, time consuming and all around god awful searching for a place can be! Not to mention I’m in a city I don’t really know, searching in suburbs I’ve never even heard of, oh and yeah there’s that job with crazy hours that I’m not used to anymore!

So here I am running about in the rain (yes it’s still cold and rainy here for those who were wondering, spring is yet to have sprung) getting completely lost in suburbs accessible to work (most of which I haven’t been to before) and arriving late to house inspections which resemble a fusion between an interview and speed dating…

We’re both trying to suss each other out, keeping a suspicious eye out for any bad habits, the usual deal breakers or a well kept secret that could forever ruin the agreement and have me out on this fun hunt once again…

I tell you thank god for google maps and iPhones…this would not be possible without them!

So I finish a good inspection, usually it’s run too long since we’re just chatting away (good sign) and I have to run off to the next one whilst calling to apologise for running late (can’t really predict the previous visit was going to go so well really!) and figuring out the buses to get where I’m going leaving no time to really mull over it and decide that it’s in my top 3 of the last few days.

When I do get down to rating them I contact the people I liked the most to see where they’re at, hoping we were on the same page and that they picked me too! (back to the dating scene/interview here)

By Sunday I thought I’d done it, I had my top three, all firm contenders and I contacted them all. Well I was shit out of luck it seems, number one on my list liked me too but her flatmate decided to stay on…right…

Number two with the perfect location, well, let’s just say discrimination works in strange ways sometimes! That said I do understand the choice to not live with someone you find attractive…all flattery aside, I was really bummed out!

Oh and number three, well it’s with a couple so I’m still trying to see how I feel about that one…

Where does it leave me? Well back to it really…back to the listings…I have read thousands of ads and I’m always conscious of the hours of my life i won’t get back…

Oh well, I’m discovering London in some ways, and meeting people…one of my closest friends back in Melbourne I met on this very same scene…she needed a flatmate and me a new home. In the end she went with someone else but we stayed great friends, worked out for the best really. Oh how the universe works in mysterious ways.

Well back to the listings for me…after an amazing doco on Fleetwood Mac I had to share this rad track…enjoy!

go your own way

Good Vibes and getting over the Local

well St Kilda festival’s Live & Local was a total success, exhausting but so much fun! apart from some technical issues (more related to venues, organisers and bands) everything went pretty smoothly (if only an hour late or so every day…)

there are so many amazing bands playing in some rad venues around St Kilda,
I’ll get some of those photos up soon, they are currently on the facebook page for St Kilda Festival

after 8 days of running around St Kilda, to about 4-6 bands a night and so many venues (I can’t even recall how many now) I was pretty over it and so so tired, but it was well worth it

so here are a couple of photos from Good Vibes…thankfully it ended up being a beautiful day and the bands were incredible…mainly Phoenix which is the reason I was there…they were so worth the ticket price, they put on an amazing show

once I get the OK from the organisers the Live & Local photos will be up too…